A couple weeks ago I started sharing some terribly edited videos about some topics that I’m very passionate about. Such as zero waste and stress.
Three months back my husband and I were getting into new routines and I noticed at the time that the rhythm was falling outside of my balance and I could see that this was not going to end up well for me, in terms of being able to watch my health and manage my stress. Which I usually do with meditation and nutrition. But for three months I just… I think my beliefs were crumbling. And…somehow, it did come to a point where so much of what I knew just had to go, and it was time again to shed some old skin.
So we were out with our boat, on this beautiful island, bathing in the sea, with all these really cute families enjoying there. It was a happy day. But by now, I’d lost so much weight and by the time we came home I just completely crashed.
It’s been a hard enough journey for me, I’m 35. And I’ve lived a very adventurous life, I didn’t need to. My family was always fairly wealthy and supportive. The only reason I don’t live in Pakistan is because I want to explore.
I mean, I love my countries, both England and Pakistan. However, I guess, I’m more humanist than patriotic. I have my moments of passion, depending on the occasion. And, as much as my personal survival instincts have allowed me to keep my sanity while entertaining a genuine anthropological curiosity, from time to time, I have to arrive at new conclusions about my motives and aspirations for life.
I have a very challenging life situation. Being a creative soul, I have to remind myself to be more grateful for how lucky I am to have a partner like Vegard. But he is just a man and we’re both nerds, we love to read and write and have heated debates about governance, global affairs, and science. Well, he educates me on the science bit and I balance our arguments with my artistic points of view. It’s always a fertile playground as long as we can feed one another’s soul with knowledge.
And so even now, I kind of stand for the same elements for life that I’ve felt were neglected in my childhood. These elements certainly concern education, ecological practices and celebrations of nature. Which, you can only really appreciate when you come to live in a place like Norway.
I’ve decided to continue making these philosophic vlogs. Hopefully by sharing some stories, ideas and eye witness accounts, I will be able to find some sense in all that I’ve experienced. And, maybe, it will give birth to new creative flow. I hope. And, as I think of how unequal the world is today, this hope is really all I wish to show and share.