The Hidden Market

In the last ten years, a constant pain in my belly has caused me to become unable to work in the ways that I’ve wanted to. My body has kept me changing my course.

After years, I found myself comforted by medicinal plants. However, once again, this month the pain is guiding me into a new direction. There isn’t much reverence in these dying skills that synergise the forest-human relationship and so, I am turning to the angels for help…

Mythically, the Capricorn sea-goat dives deep and then rises to the shore with news. As it applies to me, after a year of reflection upon one place, I would like to share the message with you, Capricorn. Like me, you have grown exhausted. Your body speaks volumes about the depletion of your energy. You need to rejuvenate your essence.


I’ve balanced well on holistic philosophies, however I find it is not so much a question of the unavailability of ingredients that prevents the perfection of the alchemic arts. Suspicion lives amongst residents, doubt concerning interference in spiritual matters does not make an ignorant community, alas it only lacks the power of self-acceptance and especially the ability to honour the masters of the forgotten crafts. The true nature of humans, we recognise, in its most primitive sense, is soulful, mystical. When such gifts are neglected, the hampered growth may have got many people feeling stagnant. You see and feel this clearly.

The inspiration to step out of depression, and step into the innovative drive that focuses on shared values, is a challenge for all kinds of thinkers to partake.

This month, changes bring loving calmness into all our lives. Capricorn’s nurturing energy is about to unfold and soon to be celebrated.

Listen closely to the acoustics of this period. And journal.

We shall soon be hearing news from the cosmos about something very important.

PCOS, Depression & Art

No one likes talking about PCOS. Leave it in the dark and show your best self, is socially acceptable. This is why I find art to be such a powerful language. This is why I blog too.

The very fact that this condition exists amongst every 3 out of 5 Asian women, not a small number, marking a significant rate in infertility, is not surprising to imagine the connection to depression. Makes me imagine what a substantial sum of the population is living far below its optimal mental or physical potential. It also excites me to see that the more treatments becoming available are being aimed at not just managing the physical symptoms, but also psychological adaptation.

Nutrition and physical exercise are a very important part of managing PCOS naturally. However, sometimes stress triggers are hidden in little corners, and we’re not always prepared for them. Since my blog is about natural self healing, I felt it necessary to write an update on my health. One of the most intriguing aspects of having this condition is that it really awakened me to the source of my stress, which has given me newfound courage to express myself more clearly.

Lavender Aromatherapy: promotes stability and a sense of calm.

Lavender Aromatherapy: promotes stability and a sense of calm.

In Norway, I haven’t exactly felt elated by the culture. People are known to be dismissive and not very good at brewing intellectual energy towards beneficial conversation. Which for me, is a bummer, since I live for good conversations. I think they are a very important element for one’s wellbeing.

Even when a situation is generally stable, my health is generally good, I still ended up with a panic attack recently. It must be that my body’s memory went into flight mode. Honestly, the last weekend at this gorgeous island I was bathing in the sea and loving every bit of it, but for any other reason than hirsutism, I felt slightly insecure about baring my skin, and even a bit jealous of cute families with cute kids.

Now, if you’re a man, I’ll tell you something. It really is my husband who does proper medical research on my behalf and, he’s been trying to start me on Metformin and Inositol since a year now. Me on the other hand, stubborn as a Capricorn can be, I was biased because of my horrible experience with past pharmaceutical pre-surgery medication. And I don’t have menstrual pain anymore, given the onset of a painless regular cycle, I shouldn’t be “worried” or concerned. Based on a load of advice (medical and holistic), I will now consider the supplements, however, I haven’t started them yet, and already feel fine.

Personally I still think that my biggest challenge is learning to be very confident, and transform the insecurity into a sort of power. My paintings in this strange space are taking the storm, and something rare is coming through.

As an energy, the stress I feel is like a ginormous ship rolling through a thunderstorm. I will finally be visiting a doctor in 2 days now in the hope that I’m not the only one keeping a ginormous mast from crashing and throwing all I have overboard.

St John's Wort & other herbs to balance moods

Depression has so many myths about it, but a good therapist will only help you identify your immediate pattern of behaviours. It really just comes down to you knowing how you feel.

Last year we foraged some St John’s Wort from the forest, very close to where I also found Raspberry leaves. It likes to grow on the edges between sandy, rocky openings of the deeper fauna beds. It is often inhabited by a tiny blueish black beetle. Herbalists love encounters with St John’s Wort for its lore.


No more than 3 cups of tea, in my personal account, were required to experience the herbal properties of St John’s Wort. It has a uniquely serene aroma, with a musky quality to the taste.


In our cold climate, my husband worked on germinating St John’s Wort from seed last year. We’ve now placed the three inch tall sprouted young ones outdoors. Will keep you posted on progress. Here’s a photo of their wild counterparts from fall 18’: